All my energy could go into complaining & resisting -- or it could go into living.

Not all who wander are lost....

Yet at times I may not quite know the way...

Happy Birthday Greg


(1987 - pre-HIV))

Life is linear, yes?
50 years old
20 years since learning I was HIV+
30 years since hiking alone on the Appalachian Trail
40 years as a 10 year old- when i first felt the emptiness of the eternal ...


(2008)
(1998)
(1988)

("1978")

("1968")
("1959")

The things I remember from Ecuador, the times of being in the present, where I felt the deepness of being, things that I bring back that confirm and strengthen my present:

Sitting on the top of the tower on the Vota Basilica, seeing the valley of Quito spread out before me as a thunderstorm moves in with its rumble and lightening flashes. Being in the moment, as the rain pours against the basilica, and through the cracks in the towers -- dripping, dripping.

and we wait,
there, in the moment, as it rains.


In Banos -- sitting in the pools of the hot baths before sunrise -- the waterfall trickling down from the mountain, the quiet spaces of the pools -- feeling my toes, legs, and body in the warmth...

or the night before, above the pools, as the waterfall tumbles around me, a perfect sunset -- realizing - forever is now & only now